Summary: Have you ever felt trapped, struggling to break free from the patterns and beliefs that hold you back? In this insightful conversation, transformational teacher Kute Blackson offers a fresh perspective on the power of surrender – a practice...
Have you ever felt trapped, struggling to break free from the patterns and beliefs that hold you back?
In this insightful conversation, transformational teacher Kute Blackson offers a fresh perspective on the power of surrender – a practice that can unlock your true potential and help you live a more purposeful life.
You'll gain a deeper understanding of your ego's conditioning, learn how to embrace the truth within yourself, and discover practical strategies to cultivate self-compassion, integrity, and alignment with your authentic self.
Listen today to embark on a journey of self-discovery and learn how to harness the transformative power of surrender.
Note: This episode was originally published July 5th, 2022.
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One of the most difficult lessons in life
is learning how to surrender.
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We struggle to let go of broken
relationships, jobs, homes, our past, even
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parts of ourselves.
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We feel like surrendering means we're
quitting or giving up.
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But our guest today hopes to redefine the
idea of what surrendering means from
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something seen as weak or passive to the
most powerful thing a human being can do.
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Coming up on The Fit Mess.
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We may not be able to change the entire
planet, but what we can do.
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is begin to bring peace in our own hearts,
to begin to be a bit more compassionate
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with ourselves, to begin to be a bit more
kinder to ourselves, to begin to bring
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ourselves into more integrity and more
alignment and more wholeness and more
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harmony.
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If we all do a little bit, then I think
the projection in the world will also
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shift.
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That's Coot Blaxton.
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He's a transformational teacher and
bestselling author.
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Today, we'll talk with him about
harnessing the power of letting go.
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to discover more purpose and meaning in
our lives.
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But first, I'm Jeremy.
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And I'm Zach.
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We've spent years pushing ourselves to
learn more about our own physical,
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emotional, and mental health and picked up
a few coaching certificates along the way.
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But really, we're two guys who got sick of
our own shit and started making changes to
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be healthier, happier, and live more
meaningful lives.
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And each week, we talk to world -class
experts with advice to help you do the
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same.
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So Zach, I wish we had done this interview
a few weeks ago, because as we were
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wrapping up the kid's school year, I also
picked up some more work at the same time.
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The combination was completely
overwhelming and I fell into old habits of
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trying to control outcomes, control
behaviors, control the people around me.
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And it's so frustrating when I do that
because I know, and I preach to others all
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the time, the importance of letting go.
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But there I was trying to convince the
stupid river of life to flow in another
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direction.
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And then of course I get angry when it
doesn't listen.
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It's funny.
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You try and put that dam in and like.
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make the water go a different way.
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Something about that just makes life
clobber you.
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Yeah.
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When you're trying to push water up a
hill, as it turns out, that's kind of a
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losing battle.
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You need a really big bucket.
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Yeah.
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I've been having the same thing in the
last couple of weeks.
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I've been thrown out of all of my routines
and I'm really struggling to get a workout
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in, get to yoga, and do all the things
that I normally do.
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And I'm beating the shit out of myself for
not doing that stuff.
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Yeah.
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Part of me is just like, you suck.
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You're not performing to the image that
you have in your head.
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But I got life.
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Like I could probably step it up a little
bit in a couple of different areas, but
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for the most part, like I have reasonable
obligations that I need to take care of.
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And that's what's getting in the way here.
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So I just need to be okay with that.
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And be like, okay, this is my life.
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We'll figure something out.
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Life will figure it out.
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I will find a way to get to the gym, eat
the things I need to eat.
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But for right now I need to eat this
almond bar with chocolate drizzled all
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over it.
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Cause it's the only two seconds I have to
eat today.
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Get out of my head.
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I've been doing the exact same thing.
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I haven't gone to the gym and every day I
was like, Oh, I just can't stay steady.
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I can't stick to it.
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What's wrong with me?
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Why am I such a piece of shit?
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And I can't just stick to the stupid
commitment that I made to myself.
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And then finally, like I did have some
time today where I probably could have
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gone, but I was like, dude, okay, let's be
real.
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Okay.
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Tomorrow you're going to Las Vegas for a
week.
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You're not going to go to the gym while
you're on vacation.
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What is the point of squeezing in one more
workout today when you really don't have
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time, but because you tell this story to
yourself that this is a thing you have to
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do all the time, you're going to, you're
really, you're going to take time to go
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jam that in with everything you have going
on in your life, only to then not do it
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again for another week.
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Like let go dude, come on.
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It's fine.
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It's one day.
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I think under normal circumstances, I
would say, you know what?
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No, get that one workout in because every
single one workout.
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You're good.
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Yes.
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But in this situation, that would be your
first workout after not having worked out
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in a little bit and going to Vegas.
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Right.
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So you're going to be really, really sore
in Vegas.
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Right.
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No, Vegas is not a place you want to be
sore.
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No, no.
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And it's just, it's just done.
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And it's just because, you know, I made
this commitment to myself and, you know,
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when I've already dropped the ball for
seven days in a row, an eighth day is not
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going to, you know, it's not going to sink
the ship.
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Besides when you're, when you're, when
we're talking about being in pain and
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Vegas.
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It's on the way home that you are in pain,
not when you're on the way.
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Just, I mean, just quick sidebar.
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This is going to be my first time sober in
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So it's, it's going to be interesting to
not have that pain all the time.
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So more about that later.
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So even though like my, my eating is not
out of control, like I'm eating relatively
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healthy stuff.
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It's just not as healthy as I want it to
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Right.
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Um, my exercise is still there.
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Like, you know, I walked a bazillion miles
in New York city at the pride festival the
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other day and.
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I'm getting exercise.
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I am moving.
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I'm just not doing the things that I
necessarily want to do.
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But through all of this, all of these
issues that I've been having with keeping
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to my schedule, one thing has remained and
I think has actually been keeping me
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grounded and giving me actually the energy
that I do need to do all the things that
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I've been doing.
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I've been taking athletic greens every
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I started taking athletic greens because I
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All right.
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Well, Zach and I are working very hard on
letting go of all those things we cling to
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to help ourselves feel better.
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And someone that can teach us a thing or
two is our guest today.
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His name is Coot Blaxton.
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He's the author of The Magic of Surrender,
Finding the Courage to Let Go.
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And we started by asking him why surrender
is something more of us should be leaning
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into, especially now.
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Wow.
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I think that surrender was the most
important thing we can do.
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I really believe that surrender is the
most powerful thing we can do.
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I really believe that surrender is the key
to our next level, is the key to
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greatness.
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If you look at the truly great ones,
whether it was Jesus, whether it was
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Buddha, whether it was Bruce Lee, whether
it was Muhammad Ali, whether it was
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Mandela, or whether it was Martin Luther
King, I think at some point they all
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surrendered themselves to life, to their
purpose, to their soul.
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And in surrendering, they transcended
their own human limitations.
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They tapped into a dimension of their
potential and dimension of life, and life
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was able to flow through them.
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And so I think that surrender gives us
access to a whole nother level of our
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potential.
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And, you know, I think right now, as we
look at the world and the uncertainty and
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the changes in the planet, and we just
went through a two year, you know, madness
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pandemic and people questioning what the
hell's going on and who am I and what's
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happening.
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I think that we've all been put into a
surrender seminar, so to speak, as a
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humanity.
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And I feel as though as a humanity,
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We are being initiated really into a new
way of living.
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And so I think unless we are truly
surrendering, we're going to go crazy.
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I think unless we're truly surrendering,
we're going to be frustrated and we're
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going to suffer.
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I like to say surrender or suffer.
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It's just the nature of life is constant
change and much of it we can't control.
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And I think part of surrender is letting
go.
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I'm going to say of the illusion of
control.
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because we think we have control, but
perhaps the last few years have shown us
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as a humanity, maybe we're not as in
control as we thought we were, control
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being a master addiction.
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I mean, we can talk about that, but we're
not as in control.
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I mean, life happens in ways that we
couldn't have planned and can't predict.
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And so surrender is really when we stop
trying to force.
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life to fit our limited idea, manipulate
life to fit our limited idea of what we
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think it should be.
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And it's when we let go of the idea of who
we think we should be and the way we think
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life should be.
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And when we get so attached to those
expectations of what we think, how we
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think things should be, how we think
people should be, that's when we set
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ourselves up for suffering.
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And so I think, especially in this time
when so much is uncertain, when we truly
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live surrender, we're going to be much
more free because,
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so many things that we expect aren't
happening the way we expected them to.
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And so I think in our culture though, we
have this misconception that surrender is
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weak, that surrender was passive, that
surrender means giving up, that it's like
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waving the white flag.
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So who the hell wants to surrender?
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That if you surrender, you're going to be
a victim, you're going to be a doormat,
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you're going to be taking advantage of,
you won't manifest your goals, dreams and
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desires.
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You're going to get less than.
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And really what I want people to...
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maybe refrain in their minds and see
surrender as something active and
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inspiring is that in surrender, what if
you didn't get less, but you got more?
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Like actually in letting go of your own
limitedness and ego's attachments and
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controlling nature, what if you actually
ended up getting more than you could have
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planned and imagined and intended with
your own ego's limited perspective?
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So I think surrender is...
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I think surrender is the key right now.
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I'm going to make an assumption that you
haven't always believed this.
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So I want to ask, you know, like, w w when
did you realize that surrendering was
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important to you?
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And I, and I really do love the way you
kind of put it there.
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I always took surrender as giving up,
right?
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Like you lost the battle and you're laying
down, but that's not it.
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So like, when did it first come into your
life?
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When did you first realize that this is
really important?
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Yeah, I could go in a few different ways
and that.
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Going all the way.
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Okay.
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So, so, so let me just say that on some
level it's been in my entire life the
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entire time, but like the magic of
surrender book was this was not the book
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or the topic I thought I was going to
write about.
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It was not the book or topic I wanted to
write about.
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I had all of these other plans and my own
agenda and the book I thought.
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would be a New York Times bestseller.
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The book I thought publishers would want,
the book I thought my audience would want,
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the book I thought, you know, would make
me reach more people.
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And I had an entire white board of ideas
and none of those felt aligned.
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None of those felt in integrity.
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And the only word that stood out for me in
my brainstorming was the word surrender.
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And I was like, hell no, I don't write
about surrender because, you know, it's
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the thing that deep down as human beings,
we know we kind of should do, but we don't
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want to do.
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And we resist for reasons which we can go
into as well.
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And I just felt the rightness of it.
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And when I surrendered to the book that
was seeking to be written, I had to
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surrender to the book about surrender.
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Then all of my entire life just began to
make freaking sense.
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Everything I went through from my
childhood and how I was raised and my
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parents started to make sense.
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But I would say more recently in 2016, my
mother was diagnosed with stomach cancer.
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And that's what really focused this theme
back into my life.
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I mean, it was something I'd been working
with and practicing, but this is when it
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really became into focus.
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She was diagnosed with stomach cancer.
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I was living, I'm living in LA.
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She was in London.
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I basically started flying back and forth
every month to be with her and be with her
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in chemo sessions.
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So a week, a month I was in London just
taking care of her basically was, was
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brutal.
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And.
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I had every intention to make her well, to
heal her, you know, alternative therapies
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and supplements.
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And after about three or four months, I
think I realized pretty quickly that no
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amount of prayer, no matter of meditation,
no matter of alternative green juice,
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nothing was going to save her life.
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And I basically surrendered.
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And in that surrender, it really just
freed me up to just
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be with her.
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And there was no like future.
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There was just this moment holding her
hand.
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And that moment could be the last moment
and could be the last moment of sitting in
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chemo with that last moment to look into
her eyes, the last moment to have a cup of
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tea.
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And it just, I don't know, it changed my
life when I just stopped resisting.
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And about seven months into the process
with my mother, the doctors basically
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looked at us and they said, there's
nothing else we can do.
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You're going to die.
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And it was a very emotional moment.
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And they said, you're going to die.
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So get your affairs in order.
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And I think I looked my mother in the eyes
and I said to her, are you afraid?
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And she said, my mother's Japanese.
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It's a little Japanese woman.
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She said, no, I'm not afraid.
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And I said, why?
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And the first thing she said was, cause I
know I'm not this body, but this body is a
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temporary vehicle for my soul.
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And I know that even when I die, this body
will die, but.
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But when I die, like, I'm gonna be with
you from the other side.
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And so there was a fearlessness that she
had.
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And then I looked to her and I said, and
this is when I think, so when the really
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started coming into focus, I looked at her
and I said, what can I do for you as your
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son to make your final days easier?
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What do you need?
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What do you want?
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And she looked at me and she said, and I'm
not like a religious person, but I'm very
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spiritual.
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And she said, you know, there's nothing I
need.
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There's nothing I want.
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The only thing I want is what God wants
for my life.
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And in that moment, I realized that she
was free.
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Even in the most raw, real situation,
like, you know, it's easy to live
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surrender when you get what you want.
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It's easy to live surrender when you have
a million dollars.
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It's easy to live surrender when you're in
the Himalayas, but when you're faced with
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your mortality in a real, raw situation,
my mother wasn't attached to living.
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She wasn't attached to dying.
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I looked in her eyes.
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And I saw that she was at peace, truly at
peace with whatever her soul's journey
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was.
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She was demonstrating surrender and this
entire year she didn't cry.
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She didn't feel like a victim.
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She didn't complain.
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She was just being where she was
experiencing what she was experiencing,
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whatever was happening.
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She was just being with it.
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And, and, and that showed me the power of
surrender, you know, and, and, and that's
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what really inspired me.
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and made me reflect in my own life in many
ways.
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Sometimes I wonder if the extreme
situations like that, where you really
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don't have a choice, it becomes easier to
surrender because what else are you going
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to do?
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You know, flail and scream and be angry.
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Which we do.
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Which we do.
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We do for sure.
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But why do we then, you know, when it's
just the simple things like, you know, the
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kids won't stop screaming, life won't, the
job won't work out, the thing won't.
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Why do we struggle against it so much?
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Right, right, right.
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I think it's a foundational question.
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And what I will say is...
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When you understand the nature of
something, it actually transforms your
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relationship with the something.
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And I think because we don't understand
the nature of who we are and what we are,
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it creates a lot of suffering.
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You see, surrender is our natural state.
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Just to kind of set a context.
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Now, I will say, yes, we do resist.
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This is normal.
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And surrender can seem hard.
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But really it's our natural state.
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If you look at, let me start here.
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If you look, what resists, constantly
resists, we are resistance machines as
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human beings.
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What resists is the ego.
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The ego is our perceived sense of self.
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Ego is what we perceive ourselves to be.
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and what we identify as, as name, as body,
as form, as person, as stories, as
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history, as memories from the past.
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And the more we identify with ourselves as
that thing, the more we are an ego, the
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more we're identified, the more type we
are.
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And we believe ourselves and we're
conditioned by society, by parents, by
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religion, by media, by life and everything
and everyone around us to believe that we
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are.
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this ego thing.
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So we believe we're the ego and the job of
the ego is to reinforce its existence and
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the job of the ego is to protect us to
make sure that we don't get hurt again.
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And so the ego means well but it's
limited.
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See as children we were surrounded like
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We would run naked through the garden.
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We didn't care.
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I'm a little sad.
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What do I look like on Instagram?
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We were just beat.
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We were completely surrendered being what
we were.
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We would jump on the table and sing.
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We didn't care if we don't sound like, you
know, Bruno Mars, Celine Dion.
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We were just being beaming essence life.
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We would cry.
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Then we would laugh.
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We would hit our heads.
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Then we would cry, get over it and just
move on.
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We wouldn't be wallowing about it.
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14, you know,
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weeks later, we were just being present in
the moment to me, that is surrender, being
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with the experience as it's arising and
being and embracing whatever's happening
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in the moment, pure surrender.
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So what the hell happens?
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I think it's important that we understand
the nature of how we get conditioned so
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that we understand the mechanism of the
ego so that we can see through it.
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With these bright beings in free flowing
surrender, we incarnate into the human
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experience.
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We meet our parents, our parents, you
know,
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interesting characters, we all have
interesting parents, they're just doing
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the best that they can do based on their
life and their upbringing, their childhood
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and their parents and their grandparents
and society media.
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So now as children we incarnate, we're
born into a preset pattern or framework of
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conditioning.
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Maybe dad was an alcoholic, maybe mom had
mental health issues, maybe they're crazy,
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maybe they hate each other, maybe they're
fighting all the time, maybe there's
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abuse, mental, emotional.
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Maybe there's alcoholism, addiction.
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Maybe they're great people, but they just
didn't know how to meet our emotional
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needs.
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And that was painful.
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So two things happened.
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And this is where ego gets created.
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And this is where we learn to start
controlling ultimately to function and
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survive.
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First thing is we learn to often
unconsciously to disconnect, shut down and
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not feel.
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And we start suppressing, controlling,
suppressing our feelings, emotions,
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suppressing the pain, suppressing.
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before you know it, layers and layers and
layers and layers and layers and and
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layers of unfelt, unprocessed feeling
begins to build up and our true light, our
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true essence gets kind of buried
underneath the layers of decades of unfelt
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feeling and emotion that we have to
control, control in order to like not feel
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the pain and survive because we feel it's
going to be overwhelming.
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And then we kind of can turn ourselves
into a certain shape and we erect walls
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around our hearts and our sensitivities in
order to
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not feel the pain again.
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And now we hold on to a certain way we go
into our mind, become overly analytical,
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disconnect, and our heart gets very
guarded in the heart, not because we're
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bad, not because we're controlling people,
but ultimately it's survival.
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So now the way that we learn to survive
when we were five, we do when we're 10 and
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then 15.
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And it worked for us when we were five,
but now we're 25.
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And now we're 35 in relationships, you
know, and falling in love and now we're
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45.
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It now starts limiting us.
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And so the mechanism with which we learn
to control the ego thinks that if we can
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control everything and everyone around us,
I'm going to be safe and I won't get hurt
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again.
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And so we learn a way of being in order to
not get hurt.
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We also learn the sense of who do I need
to be in order to get love and validation
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and approval?
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If I can, you know, it's
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If I respond a certain way, dad loves me.
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If I don't respond a certain way, mom, you
know, gives me a pat on the head.
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Good boy, good girl.
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So we start developing a role, a mask, a
persona, an identity based on who we think
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we need to be to get love, to get
validation, to get approval, which again
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is survival.
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So we unconsciously can tour ourselves
into a certain shape, a pattern that is
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really a set of.
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of conditioned patterns that we think we
are.
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It's like, ah, it's coot, it's John, it's
Donald, it's Susie.
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It's like, this is who we've become.
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We become nice, we become sweet, we become
the yes person, we become the caretaker,
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we become the responsible one, we become
always appropriate, we're always smiling,
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always happy.
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All of which is great, but in so many
ways, we develop these roles that we hold
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onto that gets reinforced by those around
us.
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So we become the shape of a person.
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thinking that the version of ourselves
that we become is who we are, not
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realizing it's really a conditioned set of
patterns that we've learned to hold onto
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as ourselves.
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So really what I want people to understand
is like, is who you are, who you really
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are, or is it simply who you've been
conditioned to become?
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And this position, this version, the set
pattern that we've become is ego.
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Ego is not a thing.
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We think ego is a thing and we think ego
is us.
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And then we hold onto like, this is just
who I am.
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Ego is a process.
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It's a process of identification that has
happened from very young that has been
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reinforced.
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But we think it's a thing because all of
society reinforces that.
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So we hold onto that.
456
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And so for the ego whose job is to make
sure we don't feel helpless, like we felt
457
00:22:54,982 --> 00:22:58,210
when we were five, to make sure we don't
go through that sense of.
458
00:22:58,210 --> 00:23:02,510
you know, fear when Dan was raging and it
was so much uncertainty.
459
00:23:02,510 --> 00:23:07,350
So we just kind of shut down disconnected
and learned to numb ourselves.
460
00:23:08,330 --> 00:23:14,170
And so for the ego, when you talk about,
Hey, go with the flow, surrender, let go.
461
00:23:14,170 --> 00:23:16,010
It's like, hell no.
462
00:23:16,010 --> 00:23:20,190
That that's like terrifying because like
what might happen.
463
00:23:20,190 --> 00:23:22,610
And that's why ego doesn't want to change.
464
00:23:22,610 --> 00:23:24,150
Ego doesn't want to reinvent itself.
465
00:23:24,150 --> 00:23:26,702
Ego isn't open to new ideas.
466
00:23:26,702 --> 00:23:32,562
because new ideas might mean I have to
question what I currently believe.
467
00:23:32,562 --> 00:23:36,002
I have to question who I thought I am.
468
00:23:36,642 --> 00:23:38,722
And that's a little scary.
469
00:23:38,722 --> 00:23:40,642
And so we don't question, we're not open.
470
00:23:40,642 --> 00:23:45,012
We just, we want to, ego wants everything
and everyone else to change, but it
471
00:23:45,012 --> 00:23:45,942
doesn't want to change.
472
00:23:45,942 --> 00:23:47,242
And that's why we did.
473
00:23:47,242 --> 00:23:52,182
So, so all I'll say is when we understand
the nature of ego and when we start
474
00:23:52,182 --> 00:23:55,086
understanding that it's a pattern and a
process on a thing.
475
00:23:55,086 --> 00:24:00,516
and then we understand that we are not
that, what we are is so much more, then we
476
00:24:00,516 --> 00:24:07,196
can begin to observe the pattern that we
previously over -identified as me, and we
477
00:24:07,196 --> 00:24:14,306
can start seeing the dots and the pattern
like, shit, I always do the same thing.
478
00:24:14,306 --> 00:24:17,266
My wife responds the same way, I react the
same way.
479
00:24:17,266 --> 00:24:20,306
My boss responds the same way, it's the
same freaking reaction.
480
00:24:20,306 --> 00:24:21,326
And when you start up,
481
00:24:21,326 --> 00:24:24,376
up until that point, we're so identified
with it, we don't see it.
482
00:24:24,376 --> 00:24:26,106
There's no freedom because they're being
reactive.
483
00:24:26,106 --> 00:24:30,516
But when you really step back, you can
start seeing the reactions and the pattern
484
00:24:30,516 --> 00:24:32,426
that you previously thought was you.
485
00:24:32,426 --> 00:24:37,376
And here's the thing, because you
understand the job of the ego to keep you
486
00:24:37,376 --> 00:24:43,886
safe, not only can you start observing it,
which creates some space and freedom, but
487
00:24:43,886 --> 00:24:49,126
then you can start meeting it with
compassion.
488
00:24:49,126 --> 00:24:50,574
Part of the surrender,
489
00:24:50,574 --> 00:24:56,954
is to begin meeting your ego, which is the
mechanism that resists surrender with
490
00:24:56,954 --> 00:24:57,914
compassion.
491
00:24:57,914 --> 00:25:03,914
Because when you can meet the ego with
compassion versus judgment or force, then
492
00:25:03,914 --> 00:25:08,634
the mechanism of the ego, which is rooted
in fear, can begin to relax.
493
00:25:08,634 --> 00:25:13,004
And to me, real healing happens when we
can meet ourselves with love and
494
00:25:13,004 --> 00:25:13,714
compassion.
495
00:25:13,714 --> 00:25:17,994
And that's when true surrender can happen,
because the part of us that's resisting
496
00:25:17,994 --> 00:25:19,374
can begin to relax.
497
00:25:19,374 --> 00:25:23,774
So anyway, that's a kind of a whole
explanation.
498
00:25:23,954 --> 00:25:26,764
I'll just say when I was five, were you in
the living room?
499
00:25:26,764 --> 00:25:29,584
Because you basically described what it
was like for me when I was five.
500
00:25:29,584 --> 00:25:32,234
I mean, that was that was how I grew up.
501
00:25:32,354 --> 00:25:35,054
So there's a little bit of my drama.
502
00:25:35,054 --> 00:25:36,074
But yeah.
503
00:25:36,114 --> 00:25:36,534
Yeah.
504
00:25:36,534 --> 00:25:42,714
But I guess I guess I really want to fast
forward a little bit in there.
505
00:25:42,714 --> 00:25:47,918
OK, so I've got my seven hundred thousand
layer cake of feelings that I've put away.
506
00:25:47,918 --> 00:25:52,718
Um, that I'm not feeling and, and my ego
is, is driving my life and, and you're
507
00:25:52,718 --> 00:25:56,338
literally burying it by eating that cake
on a daily basis.
508
00:25:56,818 --> 00:25:57,298
Yep.
509
00:25:57,298 --> 00:26:03,018
So I hear your story, I hear your message
and I want to start taking those steps to
510
00:26:03,018 --> 00:26:09,228
understand my ego and understand who I am
so that I can surrender so that I can have
511
00:26:09,228 --> 00:26:10,338
that life.
512
00:26:10,658 --> 00:26:12,018
What can I start doing?
513
00:26:12,018 --> 00:26:15,998
Like this isn't something I guess, maybe
if you have like a, a really tough
514
00:26:15,998 --> 00:26:17,932
situation like you did, it can be a.
515
00:26:17,932 --> 00:26:23,312
game time decision where it happens, but
you know, how does somebody ease into
516
00:26:23,312 --> 00:26:23,562
this?
517
00:26:23,562 --> 00:26:26,992
Like this can't be a one and done kind of
decision.
518
00:26:26,992 --> 00:26:27,382
Yeah.
519
00:26:27,382 --> 00:26:33,032
No, I think it's a lifetime process, you
know, I think, so I think we are all in
520
00:26:33,032 --> 00:26:38,962
the process of surrender because we're
alive and life is really the process of
521
00:26:38,962 --> 00:26:42,462
surrender because you know, you can't
control a lot of this stuff out here.
522
00:26:42,462 --> 00:26:43,322
It's just happened.
523
00:26:43,322 --> 00:26:44,334
You're born.
524
00:26:44,334 --> 00:26:48,804
And then you age and you die and, and, you
know, hair falls down and no matter what
525
00:26:48,804 --> 00:26:55,054
you do, the body does things, you know,
when you're 98, 70, a hundred.
526
00:26:55,054 --> 00:26:58,894
And so I think it's not about whether
you're going to surrender.
527
00:26:58,934 --> 00:27:04,804
It's just about how we participate in the
process of surrender.
528
00:27:04,804 --> 00:27:08,614
That is life itself in this game of life.
529
00:27:09,034 --> 00:27:10,604
None of us make it out of here alive.
530
00:27:10,604 --> 00:27:13,054
And that's the, you could say the ultimate
surrender.
531
00:27:13,054 --> 00:27:13,646
And so.
532
00:27:13,646 --> 00:27:15,846
I think if someone's wondering, okay,
where do I start?
533
00:27:15,846 --> 00:27:16,676
How do I start?
534
00:27:16,676 --> 00:27:20,266
I think there's maybe a couple of places.
535
00:27:20,326 --> 00:27:27,126
One might be to just begin gently
questioning yourself.
536
00:27:27,326 --> 00:27:28,786
You don't have to do anything with that.
537
00:27:28,786 --> 00:27:29,686
Just start questioning.
538
00:27:29,686 --> 00:27:33,906
Okay, I thought I am who I am, but I'm
here and maybe I'm not.
539
00:27:33,906 --> 00:27:37,286
And just begin questioning, like, who am
I?
540
00:27:37,366 --> 00:27:38,506
What am I?
541
00:27:38,506 --> 00:27:39,806
What do I believe?
542
00:27:40,226 --> 00:27:41,390
All these belic
543
00:27:41,390 --> 00:27:46,350
Because ego in our sense is held together
by a set of beliefs that we identify and
544
00:27:46,350 --> 00:27:49,550
hold onto that is the construct of who we
think we are.
545
00:27:49,550 --> 00:27:53,050
And so if we just even begin questioning,
who am I?
546
00:27:53,050 --> 00:27:53,770
And what do I believe?
547
00:27:53,770 --> 00:27:54,950
Do really believe that?
548
00:27:54,950 --> 00:27:56,250
Do I know that to be true?
549
00:27:56,250 --> 00:27:57,350
Is that my truth?
550
00:27:57,350 --> 00:28:01,770
I know I was told that by my parents and I
was told to believe that by my uncle and
551
00:28:01,770 --> 00:28:04,070
my dad, but I never really questioned.
552
00:28:04,070 --> 00:28:09,110
And so many, many times we just haven't
questioned ourselves as human beings.
553
00:28:09,110 --> 00:28:09,990
And so...
554
00:28:09,998 --> 00:28:13,238
just begin questioning, we often don't
question our stories and our thoughts.
555
00:28:13,238 --> 00:28:17,008
We're constantly telling ourselves things
like, I'm not enough and I'm not wealthy
556
00:28:17,008 --> 00:28:17,858
and I'm unlovable.
557
00:28:17,858 --> 00:28:24,838
And I'm, because we have experiences in
life that we think prove that point that
558
00:28:24,838 --> 00:28:26,438
maybe I'm not lovable.
559
00:28:26,438 --> 00:28:30,368
And we don't really question our beliefs
and our stories.
560
00:28:30,368 --> 00:28:34,238
And so I just invite people to really
question, is that true?
561
00:28:34,258 --> 00:28:35,158
I'm not lovable.
562
00:28:35,158 --> 00:28:37,298
How do I know that to be true?
563
00:28:37,298 --> 00:28:39,342
And so I think something starts happening.
564
00:28:39,342 --> 00:28:41,582
when we really begin questioning
ourselves.
565
00:28:41,582 --> 00:28:42,402
That's one.
566
00:28:42,402 --> 00:28:47,942
The other thing I would invite people to
do is look at, one of the things that
567
00:28:47,942 --> 00:28:54,152
keeps us stuck resisting and from truly
surrendering are all the lies that we tell
568
00:28:54,152 --> 00:28:55,182
ourselves.
569
00:28:55,402 --> 00:29:00,832
I think as human beings in many ways,
because of the reasons I shared about the
570
00:29:00,832 --> 00:29:06,142
ego and the construct, in many ways we lie
to ourselves and we don't even know that
571
00:29:06,142 --> 00:29:07,608
we're lying to ourselves.
572
00:29:07,662 --> 00:29:11,222
We're just lying to ourselves about who we
are, about what we feel, about what we
573
00:29:11,222 --> 00:29:13,502
want, about so much.
574
00:29:13,502 --> 00:29:17,952
Many times we're afraid of, if I am who I
really am, then you won't love me.
575
00:29:17,952 --> 00:29:22,652
And so we've learned to hide who we are,
betray parts of ourselves in order to fit
576
00:29:22,652 --> 00:29:25,362
in, get loved, be validated in the world.
577
00:29:25,362 --> 00:29:32,592
And so we stay in relationships that we
know aren't right or aren't aligned, where
578
00:29:32,592 --> 00:29:33,442
we're not in love.
579
00:29:33,442 --> 00:29:36,326
And we work jobs that we know...
580
00:29:37,646 --> 00:29:39,026
compromise our integrity.
581
00:29:39,026 --> 00:29:42,766
And this is not the true purpose why we
were born and put on this planet and
582
00:29:42,766 --> 00:29:45,986
wonder why we feel pain and why we feel
unhappy while we feel miserable.
583
00:29:45,986 --> 00:29:52,166
And so I think if someone wants to begin,
begin by telling the truth to yourself and
584
00:29:52,166 --> 00:29:56,746
just ask yourself maybe the question,
okay, what lies in my telling myself?
585
00:29:56,746 --> 00:29:57,926
Let me just start that.
586
00:29:57,926 --> 00:30:01,866
What lies am I telling myself?
587
00:30:01,866 --> 00:30:07,286
The way the ego resists and keeps things
kind of together is we live in denial.
588
00:30:07,286 --> 00:30:09,806
You know, we live unconsciously or in
denial.
589
00:30:09,806 --> 00:30:10,646
We don't want to know.
590
00:30:10,646 --> 00:30:12,966
We don't want to see because then I don't
have to change.
591
00:30:12,966 --> 00:30:13,866
I don't have to change.
592
00:30:13,866 --> 00:30:15,026
So then we resist.
593
00:30:15,026 --> 00:30:17,766
And one of the ways we do that is lying.
594
00:30:17,766 --> 00:30:22,726
And so I would just invite people to sit
with what lies am I telling myself?
595
00:30:22,726 --> 00:30:24,006
Just be with the question.
596
00:30:24,006 --> 00:30:25,766
Innocent, genuine.
597
00:30:25,946 --> 00:30:27,366
What lies am I telling myself?
598
00:30:27,366 --> 00:30:28,326
Wow.
599
00:30:28,326 --> 00:30:33,390
Sometimes it can like there is no real
transformation without truth.
600
00:30:33,390 --> 00:30:36,220
and you have to want the truth more than
you want what you have.
601
00:30:36,220 --> 00:30:39,470
And you have to want the truth more than
you want what you think you want.
602
00:30:39,470 --> 00:30:45,210
And so when you just sit with that, it can
feel scary because sometimes we don't tell
603
00:30:45,210 --> 00:30:48,920
ourselves the truth because we're afraid
of the consequences of what will happen.
604
00:30:48,920 --> 00:30:52,910
Wow, if I tell myself the truth, I might
have to let go of my relationship.
605
00:30:52,910 --> 00:30:55,710
If I tell myself the truth, I might have
to leave my job.
606
00:30:55,710 --> 00:31:02,130
And so what ego does is we begin to create
a kind of smoke screen sometimes of
607
00:31:02,130 --> 00:31:03,122
confusion.
608
00:31:03,374 --> 00:31:04,614
I'm confused.
609
00:31:04,614 --> 00:31:06,234
I don't really know what's right for me.
610
00:31:06,234 --> 00:31:07,634
I don't really know what my purpose is.
611
00:31:07,634 --> 00:31:11,124
I don't really, because if I don't really
know, let's say, what my purpose is,
612
00:31:11,124 --> 00:31:15,294
right, then I don't have to really risk
and put myself out there.
613
00:31:15,294 --> 00:31:19,074
I can always live in the comfort safety
zone of where I am.
614
00:31:19,074 --> 00:31:22,504
And I can always have the future fantasy
of having that purpose, but I don't have
615
00:31:22,504 --> 00:31:25,174
to put myself on the line and risk the
rejection and the failure.
616
00:31:25,174 --> 00:31:30,874
If I don't really know if this
relationship is right for me, then, or if
617
00:31:30,874 --> 00:31:33,102
this is the one or this is not the one
or...
618
00:31:33,102 --> 00:31:37,592
then I don't have to do anything about it,
but deep down, I think there's a part of
619
00:31:37,592 --> 00:31:38,982
us that knows.
620
00:31:39,082 --> 00:31:44,252
And so one thing that I found helps when
it comes to acknowledging the truth is
621
00:31:44,252 --> 00:31:48,142
taking, take the, I always tell people,
take the pressure off of yourself from
622
00:31:48,142 --> 00:31:49,662
having to take action.
623
00:31:49,662 --> 00:31:53,242
Because if you just take the pressure off
of yourself, I'm having to actually take
624
00:31:53,242 --> 00:31:54,162
action.
625
00:31:54,162 --> 00:31:57,672
Then that means if I, if you can just
start acknowledging the truth, you know
626
00:31:57,672 --> 00:31:58,502
what?
627
00:31:58,802 --> 00:32:00,642
I'm not in love with this person.
628
00:32:00,642 --> 00:32:02,350
I haven't been in love.
629
00:32:02,350 --> 00:32:07,780
for 10 years and it's painful and I'm
afraid and I know it, but I'm no longer in
630
00:32:07,780 --> 00:32:11,130
love and just feel that it's you don't
have to leave.
631
00:32:11,130 --> 00:32:12,350
You don't have to break up.
632
00:32:12,350 --> 00:32:17,830
You don't have to divorce, but just start
feeling the energy of the truth.
633
00:32:17,830 --> 00:32:19,470
I hate my job.
634
00:32:19,870 --> 00:32:23,410
Scary to say that because oh shit, well,
how am I going to survive?
635
00:32:23,410 --> 00:32:26,050
And I don't even want to acknowledge I
hate my job because what does that?
636
00:32:26,050 --> 00:32:26,800
I hate my job.
637
00:32:26,800 --> 00:32:28,010
I don't have to leave.
638
00:32:28,010 --> 00:32:31,150
And let me just feel that that starts a
process inside.
639
00:32:31,150 --> 00:32:31,998
And so.
640
00:32:32,238 --> 00:32:36,178
The next question you can ask yourself is
like, okay, what lies am I telling myself?
641
00:32:36,178 --> 00:32:39,618
And what are the lies that I'm telling
myself costing me?
642
00:32:39,618 --> 00:32:40,918
What does it cost?
643
00:32:40,918 --> 00:32:44,058
Really, it's ultimately, it's painful.
644
00:32:44,058 --> 00:32:46,838
So somebody might say, but how do I know
if I'm lying to myself?
645
00:32:46,838 --> 00:32:50,518
If I'm lying to myself, because you will
feel pain.
646
00:32:50,598 --> 00:32:55,858
There will likely be a level of pain that
you will feel in your life.
647
00:32:55,858 --> 00:32:58,118
And that pain is a messenger.
648
00:32:58,118 --> 00:32:59,758
That pain is a blessing.
649
00:32:59,758 --> 00:33:00,654
That pain...
650
00:33:00,654 --> 00:33:04,604
I believe is your friend, the pain is just
trying to give you feedback that there's a
651
00:33:04,604 --> 00:33:07,554
lie that you're telling yourself, or
there's a part of yourself that you're not
652
00:33:07,554 --> 00:33:10,354
in integrity with, that you're betraying,
that you're not acknowledging.
653
00:33:10,354 --> 00:33:14,304
And that pain is just trying to get your
attention so that you can course correct.
654
00:33:14,304 --> 00:33:17,194
The issue isn't that we feel pain in our
lives.
655
00:33:17,194 --> 00:33:20,414
The issue is that we distract from the
pain.
656
00:33:20,414 --> 00:33:24,274
We drink it away, we sex it away, we drug
it away, we smoke it away, we shop it
657
00:33:24,274 --> 00:33:29,224
away, we meditate it away, we social media
it away, just so that we don't have to
658
00:33:29,224 --> 00:33:30,056
feel.
659
00:33:30,062 --> 00:33:33,262
the pain, but the pain we feel is a
messenger.
660
00:33:33,262 --> 00:33:38,302
And so when we lie to ourselves, it will
tend to manifest as an emotional pain,
661
00:33:38,502 --> 00:33:43,302
depression, lethargy, lack of aliveness,
apathy.
662
00:33:43,302 --> 00:33:44,742
That's giving you a silence.
663
00:33:44,742 --> 00:33:47,402
Some think you're suppressing, not dealing
with.
664
00:33:47,402 --> 00:33:51,422
It might manifest as a temporary, let's
say, physical ailment.
665
00:33:51,422 --> 00:33:56,182
It might manifest as a, let's say, more
serious ongoing disease where the body has
666
00:33:56,182 --> 00:33:58,798
an intelligence and your truth.
667
00:33:58,798 --> 00:34:02,458
is unconsciously manifesting through your
physiology.
668
00:34:02,458 --> 00:34:06,638
And so all of these things are, I believe,
messengers that we get to pay attention
669
00:34:06,638 --> 00:34:06,868
to.
670
00:34:06,868 --> 00:34:12,258
And so I think what people can just begin
is starting with the truth.
671
00:34:12,258 --> 00:34:19,678
You don't have to like sell everything and
move to India or Tibet or Peru.
672
00:34:19,678 --> 00:34:22,242
It just might be just saying, you know
what?
673
00:34:23,919 --> 00:34:26,969
I'm not really in love with this person
and that scares me.
674
00:34:26,969 --> 00:34:30,239
Let me just be with that a moment and just
feel that.
675
00:34:30,239 --> 00:34:35,239
I'm not going to take action, but I'm
going to just be with them and just see
676
00:34:35,239 --> 00:34:36,719
what happens.
677
00:34:36,719 --> 00:34:37,899
And so starting with the truth.
678
00:34:37,899 --> 00:34:39,333
I think the truth...
679
00:34:41,839 --> 00:34:43,999
Truth is real spiritual practice.
680
00:34:43,999 --> 00:34:46,579
Truth is real therapy.
681
00:34:46,579 --> 00:34:51,819
Truth will set us free, but it can be a
little scary for us.
682
00:34:51,819 --> 00:34:58,929
But I think if we start there, that begins
a process inside and there's no way you
683
00:34:58,929 --> 00:35:03,579
can not transform it if you begin going
down the path of truth.
684
00:35:03,579 --> 00:35:04,959
That's what I found.
685
00:35:04,979 --> 00:35:07,278
I have 4 ,000 more questions.
686
00:35:07,278 --> 00:35:10,498
One of them is about your free seminar
that's coming up, but can I sneak one more
687
00:35:10,498 --> 00:35:12,678
in before we get to please, please go for
it.
688
00:35:12,678 --> 00:35:17,638
I keep thinking about this concept of
surrender and giving up and I recently
689
00:35:17,638 --> 00:35:20,138
moved from the United States to Canada.
690
00:35:20,138 --> 00:35:20,588
Wow.
691
00:35:20,588 --> 00:35:24,548
And I worked in the news media and so I
was very much in plugged into every fight
692
00:35:24,548 --> 00:35:29,658
and every social movement and thing that
was going on in the world.
693
00:35:29,658 --> 00:35:33,378
I can't help but think of the people right
now with what just happened with the
694
00:35:33,378 --> 00:35:37,272
Supreme Court in the United States and the
fight that everyone is in.
695
00:35:37,272 --> 00:35:41,022
there right now, the fight that we just
went through over masks and vaccinations,
696
00:35:41,022 --> 00:35:44,662
the fight, everyone's got to be fighting
for this thing that is a part of who they
697
00:35:44,662 --> 00:35:47,862
are and the future of the world depends on
it.
698
00:35:48,202 --> 00:35:53,202
How do I, how does that person, me, that
person, whoever they are, how do you
699
00:35:53,202 --> 00:35:56,052
balance giving, I shouldn't say giving up,
that's not the right word.
700
00:35:56,052 --> 00:35:59,622
How do you balance surrender with
advocacy?
701
00:35:59,862 --> 00:36:05,532
Because it sounds beautiful to say
whatever, whatever is meant to be will be
702
00:36:05,532 --> 00:36:06,094
and.
703
00:36:06,094 --> 00:36:08,974
and I can ride this wave and go where it
needs to take me.
704
00:36:08,974 --> 00:36:12,924
But if I don't like a world where abortion
is illegal, if I don't like a world where
705
00:36:12,924 --> 00:36:17,274
people aren't vaccinated, I don't want to
sit by and wait and see if that works out.
706
00:36:17,274 --> 00:36:20,834
So how do you balance surrender with
advocacy?
707
00:36:21,774 --> 00:36:26,494
So yeah, it's a multi -layered question, I
think.
708
00:36:26,494 --> 00:36:31,424
And I want to access it from different
places as well and give an answer.
709
00:36:31,424 --> 00:36:33,126
I would say that...
710
00:36:33,384 --> 00:36:35,374
Surrender is not giving up.
711
00:36:35,374 --> 00:36:38,614
Surrender is not abdication of
responsibility.
712
00:36:38,614 --> 00:36:41,734
Surrender doesn't mean you don't take
action, just to be clear.
713
00:36:41,734 --> 00:36:48,494
I think that surrender requires that you
feel, truly feel your deepest integrity,
714
00:36:48,494 --> 00:36:54,654
your deepest truth, your deepest truth
beyond your attachment, beyond your
715
00:36:54,654 --> 00:36:56,734
conditioning, beyond just what you want.
716
00:36:56,734 --> 00:37:01,874
And you feel what's most true, what's most
sincere, what's most authentic, what's
717
00:37:01,874 --> 00:37:02,758
most...
718
00:37:03,284 --> 00:37:08,934
seeking to express through you genuinely,
authentically, you know, in terms of your
719
00:37:08,934 --> 00:37:15,094
true purpose, your true essence, and then
you align with that.
720
00:37:15,434 --> 00:37:18,924
And when you align with that, to me, it's
like when you catch that vision for
721
00:37:18,924 --> 00:37:22,894
yourself and your life and you align with
that, then...
722
00:37:22,894 --> 00:37:27,304
just to be clear, then you move in the
direction, then you align your
723
00:37:27,304 --> 00:37:30,684
personality, your ego, your personality,
your thoughts, your thinking, your
724
00:37:30,684 --> 00:37:34,494
resources, your money, your vote, your
belief, then you align your action with
725
00:37:34,494 --> 00:37:36,444
what is authentic and what's true.
726
00:37:36,444 --> 00:37:39,914
Then you're going in a direction of what's
true.
727
00:37:39,914 --> 00:37:44,504
And so sometimes surrender might mean you
work harder than you've ever worked, you
728
00:37:44,504 --> 00:37:49,606
know, in pursuit of a cause that is in
alignment with your truth.
729
00:37:49,614 --> 00:37:54,454
just to make clear, like we look at people
like Andy and Mother Teresa and Mandela, I
730
00:37:54,454 --> 00:37:59,334
mean, they work nonstop for a cause that
was true and authentic for them.
731
00:37:59,334 --> 00:38:04,434
They were being lived by a mission and a
purpose that was bigger than them.
732
00:38:04,434 --> 00:38:10,394
And so it doesn't mean you sit there and
do nothing, but what you are pursuing is
733
00:38:10,394 --> 00:38:15,894
real and authentic and aligned with your
soul, something deeper than just your ego,
734
00:38:15,894 --> 00:38:16,854
right?
735
00:38:17,094 --> 00:38:19,630
That's kind of one thing I would say.
736
00:38:19,630 --> 00:38:25,510
The other thing I would say is, now this
might be a little controversial, but I
737
00:38:25,510 --> 00:38:32,590
think at least for me, being on a
spiritual path, being around many, many,
738
00:38:32,590 --> 00:38:39,560
many enlightened mystics, people far more
enlightened than me, gurus, teachers, what
739
00:38:39,560 --> 00:38:43,530
have you, truly enlightened beings that
I've been privileged to be around, they
740
00:38:43,530 --> 00:38:49,550
always seem so free, you know, and like
happy.
741
00:38:49,550 --> 00:38:55,290
despite the way the world was, they were
happy, peaceful, serene, radiant.
742
00:38:55,290 --> 00:38:57,540
I'm like, what the hell is the deal with
these people?
743
00:38:57,540 --> 00:38:59,300
You know, like the world is messed up.
744
00:38:59,300 --> 00:38:59,960
People are dying.
745
00:38:59,960 --> 00:39:01,150
People are starving in India.
746
00:39:01,150 --> 00:39:02,260
People are dying, starving.
747
00:39:02,260 --> 00:39:04,120
You guys are just sitting around at a
piece.
748
00:39:04,120 --> 00:39:04,440
Right.
749
00:39:04,440 --> 00:39:05,610
Can I get you some more tea?
750
00:39:05,610 --> 00:39:06,570
Are you good?
751
00:39:06,570 --> 00:39:08,110
What's the deal?
752
00:39:08,390 --> 00:39:12,570
You know, here I am crying because I'm
seeing a homeless person and I just like
753
00:39:12,570 --> 00:39:13,190
beaming.
754
00:39:13,190 --> 00:39:17,110
And so what I understood that really
helped me.
755
00:39:17,110 --> 00:39:18,744
And this is kind of more.
756
00:39:18,830 --> 00:39:25,030
It's a spiritual angle to look at
something is for me, then understanding
757
00:39:25,170 --> 00:39:30,410
that I came to was realizing that we live
in a 3D world.
758
00:39:31,770 --> 00:39:36,530
We spiritual beings, but we live in a
world of duality.
759
00:39:36,690 --> 00:39:43,450
It's just this realm, this domain, this
dimension that we live in as human beings
760
00:39:43,450 --> 00:39:47,510
is not a mystical, you know,
transcendental world.
761
00:39:47,510 --> 00:39:48,750
It's not a utopia.
762
00:39:48,750 --> 00:39:56,010
It is a world of duality, interdependent
polaric opposites.
763
00:39:56,010 --> 00:39:58,010
It's the nature of this life.
764
00:39:58,130 --> 00:40:03,930
It's the Tao, it's the yin -yang, it's the
up -down, it's the good -bent, it's the
765
00:40:03,930 --> 00:40:08,810
left -right, it's the black -white, it's
the tall -short, it's the male -female,
766
00:40:08,810 --> 00:40:14,820
it's the interdependent polaric opposites
that create its physics, you know, it's
767
00:40:14,820 --> 00:40:15,470
light -dark.
768
00:40:15,470 --> 00:40:18,270
And so in this dimension,
769
00:40:20,792 --> 00:40:21,942
nature of the world.
770
00:40:21,942 --> 00:40:24,482
It's the physics and it's the Dao.
771
00:40:24,482 --> 00:40:31,092
Inside of, if you look at the Dao De
Ching, inside of the Dao sign is inside of
772
00:40:31,092 --> 00:40:34,342
the white is a black dot, inside of the
black is a white dot.
773
00:40:34,342 --> 00:40:38,702
That to me, this is life.
774
00:40:39,222 --> 00:40:47,768
And so I think for me, that understanding
really helped me surrender.
775
00:40:49,166 --> 00:40:52,086
to the way of the duality of this world.
776
00:40:52,466 --> 00:41:00,326
And when I surrendered to that, it shifted
my relationship with it, where there was
777
00:41:00,326 --> 00:41:08,146
less, shall I say, resistance and judgment
to the dualistic nature of this dimension,
778
00:41:08,146 --> 00:41:15,600
plus minus, positive, negative, is the
duality of this world.
779
00:41:15,630 --> 00:41:20,030
when that shift in my relationship to it,
there was no resistance to it.
780
00:41:20,030 --> 00:41:21,650
This is what it is.
781
00:41:21,650 --> 00:41:23,878
From that place of...
782
00:41:25,642 --> 00:41:27,342
non -resistance.
783
00:41:27,422 --> 00:41:31,742
I think when we can understand the nature
of something, it shifts your relationship
784
00:41:31,742 --> 00:41:36,042
with something from that place of non
-resistance when you embrace it for what
785
00:41:36,042 --> 00:41:46,662
it is, then that's when I believe you can
truly move into a situation, not from a
786
00:41:46,662 --> 00:41:54,830
place against us, not from a place of
judgment, but from a place of acceptance.
787
00:41:54,830 --> 00:42:01,090
And from that acceptance choose because
when you can't shift something at the same
788
00:42:01,090 --> 00:42:04,150
level of consciousness, I'll give you an
example.
789
00:42:04,310 --> 00:42:10,110
One of my mentors who I spent, I was
privileged to know for 20 years.
790
00:42:11,030 --> 00:42:18,780
I met him when he was about 18 and he was
a former disciple of Gandhi and he built
791
00:42:18,780 --> 00:42:24,000
300 schools for the underprivileged kids
in the poorest state in India called
792
00:42:24,000 --> 00:42:24,902
Bihar.
793
00:42:25,462 --> 00:42:30,542
Bihar is a place where like, I don't know
now, but at then the illiteracy rate was
794
00:42:30,542 --> 00:42:33,962
maybe 70, it was so high, it was crazy.
795
00:42:34,022 --> 00:42:38,572
In fact, when I caught the train there
from Delhi, the guy selling the tickets
796
00:42:38,572 --> 00:42:41,002
said, why the hell are you going there?
797
00:42:41,002 --> 00:42:44,822
Like that's where the illiterates live.
798
00:42:44,962 --> 00:42:48,872
The guy at the train station called the
people in Bihar subhuman.
799
00:42:48,872 --> 00:42:50,422
I'm like, what do you mean?
800
00:42:50,422 --> 00:42:54,446
And so I was privileged to spend time with
this man of peace.
801
00:42:54,446 --> 00:43:01,066
A real man who didn't write about it, but
spent at least at that time, 50 years of
802
00:43:01,066 --> 00:43:05,306
his life every day, 24 -7, dedicating his
life to being of service and making a
803
00:43:05,306 --> 00:43:06,226
difference.
804
00:43:06,306 --> 00:43:11,266
And I'll never forget, he came here when
George Bush was in power.
805
00:43:11,266 --> 00:43:15,966
And, you know, we didn't like George Bush
and the war and what have you.
806
00:43:15,966 --> 00:43:20,396
And so I took him to a peace rally in San
Francisco.
807
00:43:22,510 --> 00:43:25,490
And I'll never forget, I took him to the
Peace rally.
808
00:43:25,490 --> 00:43:27,230
He was invited to speak.
809
00:43:27,310 --> 00:43:31,070
The war was happening, you know,
everyone's like F George Bush, F George
810
00:43:31,070 --> 00:43:32,230
Bush, F George Bush.
811
00:43:32,230 --> 00:43:33,550
It was like in the audience.
812
00:43:33,550 --> 00:43:34,490
I mean, it was intense.
813
00:43:34,490 --> 00:43:35,530
F George Bush.
814
00:43:35,670 --> 00:43:37,748
And his name was Dwarkoji.
815
00:43:40,334 --> 00:43:41,774
I said, Dwarkeji, how do you feel?
816
00:43:41,774 --> 00:43:43,194
He said, I feel good.
817
00:43:43,194 --> 00:43:44,854
Anything you want to tell me before you go
on stage?
818
00:43:44,854 --> 00:43:46,334
No, no, no, no, no.
819
00:43:46,334 --> 00:43:49,674
He went on stage, thousands of people.
820
00:43:50,654 --> 00:43:53,034
F George Bush, F George Bush.
821
00:43:53,194 --> 00:43:54,886
This moment changed my life.
822
00:43:56,622 --> 00:43:59,602
He looked at everyone in the audience and
maybe had a right to do cause he's eight
823
00:43:59,602 --> 00:44:04,572
years old and people, you know, he had
some credibility, but this moment changed
824
00:44:04,572 --> 00:44:05,102
my life.
825
00:44:05,102 --> 00:44:11,862
He looked at, he looked at the audience,
audience went silent and he said, do you
826
00:44:11,862 --> 00:44:13,002
love Bush?
827
00:44:16,302 --> 00:44:19,262
was like, and he said, do you love Bush?
828
00:44:20,022 --> 00:44:22,420
Because here we are at a peace rally.
829
00:44:24,174 --> 00:44:32,934
and I feel a lot of hate, but you can't
change something or bring love with hate.
830
00:44:33,954 --> 00:44:36,354
And I really got what he was saying.
831
00:44:36,354 --> 00:44:39,394
I really understood the essence of what he
was saying.
832
00:44:39,754 --> 00:44:44,184
And he went on to give this whole talk,
but he said, must love his soul and see
833
00:44:44,184 --> 00:44:45,454
his soul.
834
00:44:45,474 --> 00:44:48,934
Because if you just change something with
the energy of hate, you just kind of
835
00:44:48,934 --> 00:44:52,942
perpetuate that energy and you feed
into...
836
00:44:52,942 --> 00:44:56,002
the duality of this realm.
837
00:44:56,002 --> 00:45:00,162
And so then it goes from left, then it
swings to right, and then it swings back
838
00:45:00,162 --> 00:45:01,922
to left, and it just keeps swinging.
839
00:45:01,922 --> 00:45:10,742
And at some point, we have to transcend
that to find the shared being, the shared
840
00:45:10,742 --> 00:45:13,902
oneness, the shared humanity where we can
meet.
841
00:45:13,902 --> 00:45:16,702
Otherwise, it's just going to go left to
right, up to down.
842
00:45:16,702 --> 00:45:18,542
We're all going to be stuck in the
duality.
843
00:45:18,542 --> 00:45:19,270
So...
844
00:45:20,618 --> 00:45:23,678
Surrender doesn't mean you sit there and
do nothing.
845
00:45:23,958 --> 00:45:28,358
Surrender doesn't mean you sit on the
sidelines and just let people trample over
846
00:45:28,358 --> 00:45:28,838
you.
847
00:45:28,838 --> 00:45:30,958
Surrender doesn't mean you don't go
protest.
848
00:45:30,958 --> 00:45:36,868
Surrender doesn't mean, but I think it
means we move into it from a different
849
00:45:36,868 --> 00:45:39,998
place within our own selves.
850
00:45:39,998 --> 00:45:42,898
And the last thing I'll say just to add to
that is,
851
00:45:45,166 --> 00:45:49,880
might sound controversial, but one thing
I'll say is the world that we see.
852
00:45:52,942 --> 00:45:59,182
Right now, 2022, we're having this
conversation, divisiveness, war, you know,
853
00:45:59,182 --> 00:45:59,702
Roe vs.
854
00:45:59,702 --> 00:46:04,902
Wade getting overturned, George Floyd, the
world that we see.
855
00:46:06,638 --> 00:46:11,678
to me is a manifestation of the collective
consciousness of all of us, all of us
856
00:46:11,678 --> 00:46:12,678
combined.
857
00:46:12,838 --> 00:46:17,538
Every single one of us, our consciousness
projected out there has created this
858
00:46:17,538 --> 00:46:18,258
world.
859
00:46:18,258 --> 00:46:23,278
To me, the world is a mirror of our
consciousness combined.
860
00:46:23,278 --> 00:46:27,138
The leaders that we see, we can look at
Trump, we can look at Biden, we can look
861
00:46:27,138 --> 00:46:30,638
at Boris Johnson, we can look at whoever,
just pick them.
862
00:46:30,758 --> 00:46:34,948
The world that we, like, if we look at the
leaders, if we look at the war, if we look
863
00:46:34,948 --> 00:46:36,558
at Ukraine, if we look at,
864
00:46:36,558 --> 00:46:37,558
you know, racism.
865
00:46:37,558 --> 00:46:43,018
To me, we have to ask ourselves, if the
world is a mirror manifestation of the
866
00:46:43,018 --> 00:46:48,238
collective consciousness of all of us
combined, what does the world reflect to
867
00:46:48,238 --> 00:46:49,798
us about ourselves?
868
00:46:49,798 --> 00:46:55,118
And if we just, if we just focus on
changing what's out here, changing what's
869
00:46:55,118 --> 00:46:59,148
out there, changing a leader, getting how
many times in Africa, have we changed, how
870
00:46:59,148 --> 00:47:01,298
many times in America have we changed
leadership?
871
00:47:01,298 --> 00:47:02,678
Nothing really changes.
872
00:47:02,678 --> 00:47:05,198
And so to me, if the world is a mirror,
873
00:47:05,198 --> 00:47:08,798
of the collective consciousness of all of
us combined.
874
00:47:09,238 --> 00:47:12,798
If you can't, let's say change the world
out here.
875
00:47:12,998 --> 00:47:17,118
What we all can do individually is change
ourselves.
876
00:47:17,118 --> 00:47:20,968
And maybe we can start by just to me,
surrender is by starting by asking
877
00:47:20,968 --> 00:47:25,338
ourselves the question, okay, this
president, this leader, this mayor,
878
00:47:25,338 --> 00:47:26,118
they're a jerk.
879
00:47:26,118 --> 00:47:27,398
They don't have integrity.
880
00:47:27,398 --> 00:47:28,198
They're like,
881
00:47:29,678 --> 00:47:31,198
How is that me?
882
00:47:31,518 --> 00:47:33,318
Where do I lie?
883
00:47:33,438 --> 00:47:33,978
Do I not?
884
00:47:33,978 --> 00:47:34,738
Well, they lie.
885
00:47:34,738 --> 00:47:35,858
Why not lie?
886
00:47:35,858 --> 00:47:37,058
We talked about the truth.
887
00:47:37,058 --> 00:47:38,198
Where do I lie?
888
00:47:38,198 --> 00:47:40,258
Where do I cheat on my wife?
889
00:47:40,258 --> 00:47:41,428
Where do I cheat on my this?
890
00:47:41,428 --> 00:47:42,738
Where do I tell little?
891
00:47:42,738 --> 00:47:44,898
Where do I betray myself?
892
00:47:45,438 --> 00:47:53,958
And so to me, part of surrender is the
full responsibility for ourselves and
893
00:47:53,958 --> 00:47:55,118
being that change.
894
00:47:55,118 --> 00:47:57,614
It's like, okay, if I want, if I.
895
00:47:57,614 --> 00:48:01,254
If I want more integrity out there, how
can I live more integrity in here?
896
00:48:01,254 --> 00:48:03,108
Okay, more.
897
00:48:05,294 --> 00:48:07,334
Where do I drop bombs?
898
00:48:08,034 --> 00:48:13,254
I'm not a terror, but where do I drop
bombs of self judgment and self hatred
899
00:48:13,254 --> 00:48:16,374
inside of my own consciousness every day?
900
00:48:16,374 --> 00:48:20,954
There's a war going on inside of my own
mind every day, because that gets
901
00:48:20,954 --> 00:48:22,214
projected out here.
902
00:48:22,214 --> 00:48:23,254
Division.
903
00:48:24,534 --> 00:48:29,034
Where am I divided in terms of my own, you
know, parts of me all over the place,
904
00:48:29,034 --> 00:48:34,254
parts of me suppressed in my shadow where
I'm not whole in myself and
905
00:48:34,254 --> 00:48:39,334
So I think if we really want to change the
world to surrender to saying, okay, we may
906
00:48:39,334 --> 00:48:44,864
not be able to change the entire planet,
but what we can do is begin to bring peace
907
00:48:44,864 --> 00:48:48,864
in our own hearts, to begin to be a bit
more compassionate with ourselves, to
908
00:48:48,864 --> 00:48:52,594
begin to be a bit more kinder to
ourselves, to begin to bring ourselves
909
00:48:52,594 --> 00:48:55,694
into more integrity and more alignment and
more wholeness and more harmony.
910
00:48:55,694 --> 00:48:58,174
And I think that is really the surrender.
911
00:48:58,174 --> 00:49:03,054
And if we do that, if I do that, you do
that, she does that, he does, we all do a
912
00:49:03,054 --> 00:49:03,964
little bit.
913
00:49:04,046 --> 00:49:09,686
then I think the projection in the world
will also shift.
914
00:49:09,686 --> 00:49:11,986
So that's just kind of my two cents.
915
00:49:11,986 --> 00:49:15,066
And if we want to learn a little bit more
about how to do that, I understand you
916
00:49:15,066 --> 00:49:19,706
have a seminar coming up or a summit that
people can learn more about this.
917
00:49:19,706 --> 00:49:20,706
Yeah, I have a five day.
918
00:49:20,706 --> 00:49:22,866
It's a free five day online event.
919
00:49:22,866 --> 00:49:26,866
And I really want people to get access to
just this information.
920
00:49:26,926 --> 00:49:29,326
It's called the Surrender Summit, five
days free.
921
00:49:29,326 --> 00:49:30,306
It's online.
922
00:49:30,306 --> 00:49:33,774
If you can't make it live, you can watch
the replays.
923
00:49:33,774 --> 00:49:38,034
www .thesurrendersummit .com.
924
00:49:38,034 --> 00:49:42,134
I'm bringing together also, I'll be
teaching, but I'm bringing together some
925
00:49:42,134 --> 00:49:46,914
of my friends, people like Neil Donald
Walsh, who got Conversations with God,
926
00:49:46,934 --> 00:49:53,044
Michael Beckwith, Master Beck, she's been
on Oprah, John Demartini, who was in The
927
00:49:53,044 --> 00:49:55,674
Secret, who else?
928
00:49:55,674 --> 00:50:00,462
Barbra the Angelist, John Gray, and 20
inspiring teachers from...
929
00:50:00,462 --> 00:50:02,042
all angles and all disciplines.
930
00:50:02,042 --> 00:50:07,402
I really love bringing people with a wide
range of perspectives to share about how
931
00:50:07,402 --> 00:50:13,442
to live surrender in your life and also
how to use the principle of surrender so
932
00:50:13,442 --> 00:50:17,362
that you can harness it and fulfill your
true potential.
933
00:50:17,522 --> 00:50:20,542
So that's July 12th, 2019.
934
00:50:20,542 --> 00:50:21,052
That's beautiful.
935
00:50:21,052 --> 00:50:23,452
We will have that link in the show notes
for this episode.
936
00:50:23,452 --> 00:50:25,922
Where else can we learn more about you and
your work online?
937
00:50:25,922 --> 00:50:27,262
Yeah, kubedlaxson .com.
938
00:50:27,262 --> 00:50:30,182
My name is K -U -T -E, kubedlaxson .com.
939
00:50:30,292 --> 00:50:33,542
Instagram, Coop Blackson, Facebook, Coop
Blackson.
940
00:50:33,542 --> 00:50:41,022
Twice a year I do a very special 12 day
event in Bali, www .boundlessbali .com.
941
00:50:41,022 --> 00:50:41,462
Beautiful.
942
00:50:41,462 --> 00:50:43,542
Thank you so much for your time and your
wisdom today.
943
00:50:43,542 --> 00:50:48,332
Our thanks to Coop Blackson, author of The
Magic of Surrender, Finding the Courage to
944
00:50:48,332 --> 00:50:48,922
Let Go.
945
00:50:48,922 --> 00:50:52,932
You can find links to him and his work in
the show notes for this episode at
946
00:50:52,932 --> 00:50:54,602
thefitmass .com.
947
00:50:54,842 --> 00:50:59,910
And that was a really powerful story that
he had about his mother and...
948
00:51:00,078 --> 00:51:04,348
It really hits my heartstrings when I hear
things like that, but then also really
949
00:51:04,348 --> 00:51:11,268
makes me almost feel bad about myself of
like, do I need to wait until something
950
00:51:11,268 --> 00:51:14,278
that traumatic happens before I can shift
my life?
951
00:51:14,278 --> 00:51:16,398
Like, why don't I just shift it now?
952
00:51:16,398 --> 00:51:19,388
And like you said, and this is one of the
key takeaways from that interview was that
953
00:51:19,388 --> 00:51:20,668
your ego is a process.
954
00:51:20,668 --> 00:51:24,068
And that's something that, that as long as
I've been studying, you know, Dharma and
955
00:51:24,068 --> 00:51:29,344
meditation and all this stuff, the idea of
letting go of ego is
956
00:51:29,344 --> 00:51:35,564
really difficult because everything that
we are in this life or this realm, this
957
00:51:35,564 --> 00:51:40,034
dimension, as he put it, is an
accumulation of experiences and ideas and
958
00:51:40,034 --> 00:51:40,614
beliefs.
959
00:51:40,614 --> 00:51:46,874
And so you work so hard for most of your
life to develop a sense of identity.
960
00:51:46,874 --> 00:51:50,614
And like he says, it's really just this
series, this process.
961
00:51:50,614 --> 00:51:55,524
It's this accumulation of stuff that you
hang on to, to convince yourself that that
962
00:51:55,524 --> 00:51:56,926
is who you are.
963
00:51:57,198 --> 00:52:02,878
When in fact, that's just the stuff that
the world sees you as, and you can change
964
00:52:02,878 --> 00:52:04,878
that at any time.
965
00:52:05,658 --> 00:52:10,288
Nobody's saying it's easy because if
you've spent years building that up, I
966
00:52:10,288 --> 00:52:14,598
would reason from that, that it will take
years to take it apart again.
967
00:52:14,598 --> 00:52:20,410
And it's something that in my experience,
I built it up really, really well.
968
00:52:20,654 --> 00:52:24,034
And then I started taking pieces out and
then like Jenga, you'd take a piece and a
969
00:52:24,034 --> 00:52:26,954
whole bunch of it falls out and then you
panic and you put it all back up and start
970
00:52:26,954 --> 00:52:31,034
rebuilding that wall because it's, it's
really scary to let go of.
971
00:52:31,034 --> 00:52:35,514
But like he said, and, and like I've
experienced in my own life, the more you
972
00:52:35,514 --> 00:52:40,964
can surrender, the more the truth of what
your experience, what you want it to be, I
973
00:52:40,964 --> 00:52:42,464
guess, becomes apparent.
974
00:52:42,464 --> 00:52:47,324
And it becomes just a simpler way to live
rather than constantly trying to impose
975
00:52:47,324 --> 00:52:49,814
your will on other people.
976
00:52:49,814 --> 00:52:50,222
And, and.
977
00:52:50,222 --> 00:52:52,134
life in general.
978
00:52:56,974 --> 00:53:02,114
I don't know, Jeremy, I really tried to
put the square peg into the round hole.
979
00:53:02,114 --> 00:53:07,854
I mean, it, it causes so much pain in our
lives trying to do that.
980
00:53:07,854 --> 00:53:08,064
Yeah.
981
00:53:08,064 --> 00:53:12,884
I think just his point about pain being a
message, you know, when, when we get stuck
982
00:53:12,884 --> 00:53:18,624
in our comfort zones and don't really put
ourselves out there and try to experience
983
00:53:18,624 --> 00:53:23,314
new things and try and live that life of
purpose that we very comfortably imagine
984
00:53:23,314 --> 00:53:25,314
one day achieving.
985
00:53:25,454 --> 00:53:29,184
The pain that comes with getting out of
that comfort zone is very much a message
986
00:53:29,184 --> 00:53:30,994
that you are growing.
987
00:53:31,234 --> 00:53:31,614
Yeah.
988
00:53:31,614 --> 00:53:35,494
I struggled so much with getting out of my
comfort zone.
989
00:53:35,494 --> 00:53:40,754
And I got to tell you, like, you know, the
thing you need to do, you know, like just
990
00:53:40,754 --> 00:53:47,764
for work, like, you know, even today, like
I had to deal with a contract and I didn't
991
00:53:47,764 --> 00:53:51,344
want to, I just didn't want to, I knew it
was going to be painful.
992
00:53:51,344 --> 00:53:52,704
I knew I had to have arguments.
993
00:53:52,704 --> 00:53:54,240
I knew I had to like,
994
00:53:54,542 --> 00:53:57,102
go against the grain and I put it off.
995
00:53:57,102 --> 00:53:58,582
Like I put it off all morning.
996
00:53:58,582 --> 00:54:01,342
Like that's when I usually get all that
kind of stuff done.
997
00:54:01,342 --> 00:54:05,062
And you just have to know it's going to be
uncomfortable and put systems in place to
998
00:54:05,062 --> 00:54:05,722
help you along.
999
00:54:05,722 --> 00:54:05,902
Right.
1000
00:54:05,902 --> 00:54:09,822
So like, you know, I was like, okay, I'm
going to do this and it's going to be
1001
00:54:09,822 --> 00:54:11,442
uncomfortable and I'm not going to like
it.
1002
00:54:11,442 --> 00:54:14,712
But I put my headphones in, I put my
neural beats on, right.
1003
00:54:14,712 --> 00:54:17,662
And I just like, tried to set the stage
and put myself in the most comfortable
1004
00:54:17,662 --> 00:54:20,502
place possible and just grind it out.
1005
00:54:20,502 --> 00:54:24,804
I mean, that's what it comes down to is
like.
1006
00:54:25,134 --> 00:54:28,094
those things that you don't want to do
where you're going to grow like in this
1007
00:54:28,094 --> 00:54:31,774
particular thing is just like a little
outside of my comfort zone.
1008
00:54:32,134 --> 00:54:33,454
It's gonna hurt.
1009
00:54:33,454 --> 00:54:34,834
It's gonna be painful.
1010
00:54:35,294 --> 00:54:37,834
But that just means the reward is that
much bigger.
1011
00:54:37,834 --> 00:54:37,984
All right.
1012
00:54:37,984 --> 00:54:41,404
Well, those and lots of other very
powerful lessons in that interview with
1013
00:54:41,404 --> 00:54:41,984
Coop Blackson.
1014
00:54:41,984 --> 00:54:45,344
You can find out more about him in the
show notes for this episode at thefitmass
1015
00:54:45,344 --> 00:54:45,894
.com.
1016
00:54:45,894 --> 00:54:47,950
But don't let the conversation end there.
1017
00:54:47,950 --> 00:54:50,910
Join us on our Facebook group where you
and fellow FitMass listeners can connect
1018
00:54:50,910 --> 00:54:53,930
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reach your goals, and connection with
1019
00:54:53,930 --> 00:54:55,730
others who are on a similar journey.
1020
00:54:55,730 --> 00:54:59,140
That link is also on our website,
thefitmass .com, where we will be back
1021
00:54:59,140 --> 00:55:00,910
next week with a brand new episode.
1022
00:55:00,910 --> 00:55:02,170
Thanks for listening.
1023
00:55:02,530 --> 00:55:03,410
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1024
00:55:03,410 --> 00:55:04,100
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00:55:04,100 --> 00:55:05,910
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1026
00:55:05,910 --> 00:55:09,010
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00:55:09,010 --> 00:55:12,950
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1028
00:55:12,950 --> 00:55:16,270
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1029
00:55:16,270 --> 00:55:19,400
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1030
00:55:19,400 --> 00:55:23,370
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KUTE BLACKSON is a beloved inspirational speaker and transformational teacher. He speaks at countless events he organizes around the world as well as at outside events including A-Fest, YPO (Young Presidents’ Organization), and EO (Entrepreneurs’ Organization). He is a member of the Transformational Leadership Council, a select group of one hundred of the world’s foremost authorities in the personal development industry. Winner of the 2019 Unity New Thought Walden Award, Blackson is widely considered a next generation leader in the field of personal development. His mission is simple: To awaken and inspire people across the planet to access inner freedom, live authentically and fulfill their true life’s purpose